Life: The Rollercoaster

* I apologize in advance for this long, at times random post. This is my place to vent and seek advice, so that's what I'm doing.

I learned in my junior year of college that I needed to let go of the reins and just let my life take its course. I grew up with the mindset that there was a certain path to follow in life that would ultimately lead to the happiness I was seeking. Life will never be that perfect though. Fitting into a cookie cutter existence is impossible. There is no 'perfect life'. You'd think that realizing this would feel like finding a golden key. Wrong. How is it that even though life teaches you new things daily, you still seem to stubble along the same speedbumps?

I also learned through that tumultuous time, that giving your friendship (and therefor your heart) freely is one of the scariest things that life can deal you. Growing up, I thought that giving my heart to a boy was scary enough. Who knew that your girlfriends could hurt you the most? Finding a true friendship is hard. I am lucky in my life to have two amazing, amazing girlfriends who I know will be there for me no matter what. We have all been through a lot in our lives that have brought us all even closer. Before this though, I lost a very important friend in my life. I say 'lost', because it honestly feels like that person died. We had been friends throughout high school and went away to college together. We even roomed together for our freshman and sophomore years. I'm not going to hash out the details here, but it still hurts (3 years later) that that friendship can never be reconciled. We haven't even spoken in that time, and its something that can never be fixed. Even though I know that I could never trust that person again and am much better without her in my life, why does it still hurt so much? My two besties don't live close enough to get together with on a regular basis and its horrible that 'she' lives less than 10 minutes away. I hate not having a good friend that close anymore.

I am trying to meet more people in my area, but I resent 'her' for breaking me. I feel broken because I am so nervous of being hurt like that again. I don't know if I could handle another few years like that. How do you move forward without taking caution of events in the past?

Back to Work...

Returning to work yesterday was very difficult after the fabulous weekend I had. I left work at 11:00 on Wednesday morning and headed to the south shore (Massachussetts) to pick up Gretchen and then we were on our way to the ferry on Cape Cod. There was hardly any traffic and the ferry was barely filled. I was glad that we decided to leave early so that traveling was a breeze! The following are my favorite pics from the weekend! Enjoy!Gretchen and I on the ferry

M & G before the Taste
M & I enjoying some champagne before we headed out

Out on the dance floor

The intense amounts of food/drink were amazing!

Can't wait until next year!!!

Oh the joys of packing

As many of you know I am heading south to the vineyard for the tail end of this week. I am ecstatic to have a girls wknd with my besties and soak in some sun as well. The taste is fast approaching and I am hurridly finishing up my dress- I know I promised pics but I don't want to post any until it is perfect. Along with choosing the perfect outfit for Thursday's event, I also have several other days to plan for. I am heading down Wednesday afternoon and will be returning on Sunday. The weather keeps flip-flopping so many outfits need to be chosen.

I am a girl who LOVES lists and of course I have started on my packing list. I am looking for as many suggestions as possible. I am always the over-packer, which in some cases works. But I don't want to show up for a 4-day holiday looking like i'm moving in for the summer. Where is the line between being prepared and simply over doing it? Suggestions welcomed ladies!

xoxo M

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Week Recap & Happy Friday!

Hello Bloggers,

Oh how I have missed you this week! I have had an extremely hectic week and am looking forward to another relaxing weekend at the beach. My boss was on vacation all last week so that alone made things crazy in the office. This week was full of make-up tasks of things that had piled up on his plate from last week. On Tuesday I was in Boston for a seminar. It was nice being out of the office for the day, but catching up on Wednesday was insane. Luckily all of the craziness made the week fly by :).

Another disaster also occurred this week- remember when I posted about the cute fabric I had ordered for my dress for the Taste? Well, the company is completely ridiculous and I had to cancel my order. I had not received my order in the mail so I called yesterday to confirm that it would be arriving shortly. I was rudely informed that it might take up to two more weeks for my small order of only 4 yds. of fabric to be shipped! Two weeks?! Considering the event is a week from yesterday, I realized I was completely screwed and promptly cancelled my order. Looks like I will be making an emergency trip to the local fabric store and trying to find something that will work. I am so dissapointed though because the fabric I had ordered was PERFECT. Exactly what I was looking for: classic and overtly preppy (while still remaining understated). UGH! Wish me luck ladies...update to follow on Monday...

Tomorrow Kevin is going golfing with some friends while their girlfriends and I lounge in the sun. What is more perfect than two days with absolutely nothing to do but sip cocktails and work on my tan?! It is exactly what I need after this week. I hope that you all enjoy a fabulous weekend as well!