There is no inspiration for this post, so please bare with me. It's a beautiful Thursday and the weekend is in sight. Last night was my first rehearsal for the piece that I am choreographing for the dance company I am in. It was fun to actually start getting into the piece with the other girls. The song is lollipop by mika. It's really fun, cute, and a little naughty at the same time. A great combo! Sometimes its fun to not be the good/sweet girl and step out of your element. The group is really starting to get serious about putting together our show and I'm looking forward to seeing it all come together.
Growing up is hard. I feel like I have always pictured my adult life in a certain way and as I become more independent I'm realizing that nothing is ever how I expected it would be. I've discovered that things change on a daily basis and that there really is no ultimate goal- bc once you've reached it, life still goes and the next day always comes. I know that communication in my relationship with others has never been my strong point. Things have been struggling with Kevin lately and I'm really at a loss for words. I'm hoping that day by day things will get better, but I also don't want to feel like I am the only one working at it. Have any of you ever been in a long-term relationship where you know that your not really happy with where things are, but you can't imagine letting that person go? But you also know that you don't want to keep going if the relationship really isn't meant to be? I just know that I don't want to be one of those people who put years & years into a relationship only to still have it crumble. I mean let's face it, I'm not getting any younger! I know I'm only 22, but I'm post college faze and am afraid that if things don't work out with Kevin that I'm never going to find anyone else. I think I'm possibly the youngest person at my company and I'm not meeting any hotties on the mat next to me in yoga.
I know that I have asked for a lot of feedback and advice from you all this week, but I need more. I like to use this blog to get different perspectives and feedback from people other than in my daily life.